True Life: I Fall Short of My New Year's Resolutions
Hello my friends. It is now nearly 2018 and that means brand new, New Year's Resolutions are underway. It's funny how we set goals every year, and then a new year comes and we set new ones. But how often do we reflect on the ones we had previously set? How often do we move onto the following goal without truly taking time to recall how we achieved (or didn't achieve) our current goals. How often do we overlook the reasons why we did or didn't complete our tasks? I am quite guilty of this.
I set a few resolutions that I aimed to complete during 2017. This seemed to be the first year that I actually set some with the real intention of following through on them. I took the time to write them down on a piece of paper that is currently sitting in front of my laptop at work. I see it right now as I take a look away from the screen for a minute. This paper has four goals on it: 1. Read the New Testament. 2. Start Much Love Designs (a startup I attempted). 3. Better posture. 4. ALWAYS find the bright side. These four short goals were my intentions for 2017. They were the things I really wanted to accomplish. In addition to writing them down, I told my husband what they were in order for him to keep me accountable.
The first one was most important to me. I wanted to grow in my faith, and I knew that the first step to growing is reading God's word. I began strong; the first month I seemed to be reading daily, getting through chapter by chapter. And then it happened. I skipped a day. Then, I skipped another day. And before I knew it, I had been without reading the bible for a good week or two straight. Who am I? What happened to my goals? Life got in the way. I got in the way. I forgot exactly why I set this resolution. I forgot the purpose for reading the bible. It wasn't necessarily just to get through it to say, "Yeah, I read the whole New Testament all the way through." My real intention for setting this goal was so that I would grow in my relationship with God.
I got to a point where it was June 20th and I had only read about 30 chapters of the New Testament and struggled to find time to dedicate to reading. After my mission's trip to Jamaica (you can find my blog post about that here), I realized my priorities were all sorts of messed up. I realized I really did desire to grow in my faith and that meant making reading the bible my number one priority. After my trip, I found myself at a crossroads: either I allow the trip to change my life completely, or I ignore what it taught me. I chose to change. I woke up with a mission to read, a mission to learn about God on a newer and deeper level, a mission to grow and change. This mission allowed me to accomplish my resolution. I meditated on the deeper reason behind my desire to read the entire New Testament and on December 27th, I completed my goal. I owe it all to the trip - the one that helped me rediscover my true desire. I took ahold of that desire, that passion, that willpower to grow. That made all the difference. That is what enabled me to be successful.
I challenge you to consider your goals as more than just checking things off a list to feel accomplished. I challenge you to think about them for their significance in your life. Why are you setting these specific goals? When you search your heart, what is it telling you? What will give you the drive you need to accomplish them? What will allow you to have a deeper and more empowering urge to fulfill your resolutions? If your goal is to workout 6 days a week, why do you want to do this? Is it to tone up to feel more confident in your skin? Is it to get stronger? What if your goal is to spend more time with friends? Don't just check a box every time you do so, but seek to grow in your relationships and find joy in friendship. Whatever your goals are, reflect on why you seek to achieve them. Why do you have this desire? Why are you seeking to improve this area of your life? Consider the underlying reason for them. Write them down and dwell on them weekly.
So why do we so often fall short of accomplishing our goals? It's because we fail to recognize the significance of the desire behind them. We fail to understand we are worth fighting for our desires–that our passions really mean something. We let self-doubt creep in. We treat ourselves as dispensable instead of a valuable force. When our goals are not made a priority, life gets in the way. We get caught up in checking things off a list (which can be blown off so easily); instead, we must take the time to let the purest version of our goal sink in. We must understand that we deserve to make our goals a priority each day. We are worthy of fulfilling our passions. We are strong enough to believe in ourselves. For our goals to truly mean something to us, we must dig deep into our soul to find the underlying meaning and dwell on that daily, not the goal itself. Dwell on your true passions. You WILL accomplish them this year. Believe it. Believe in yourself. Believe you are worth it. Now get going.